word Home will have only a special significance�察�indicating the mon abode of retired labourers who are drawing old´age pensions。
XVIII
I cannot close my eyes upon this day without setting down some record of it�察�yet the foolish insufficiency of words� �At sunrise I looked forth�察�nowhere could I discern a cloud the size of a man's hand�察�the leaves quivered gently�察�as if with joy in the divine morning which glistened upon their dew。 At sunset I stood in the meadow above my house�察�and watched the red orb sink into purple mist�察�whilst in the violet heaven behind me rose the perfect moon。 All between�察�through the soft circling of the dial's shadow�察�was loveliness and quiet unutterable。 Never�察�I could fancy�察�did autumn clothe in such magnificence the elms and beeches�察�never�察�I should think�察�did the leafage on my walls blaze in such royal crimson。 It was no day for wandering�察�under a canopy of blue or gold�察�where the eye could fall on nothing that was not beautiful�察�enough to be at one with Nature in dreamy rest。 From stubble fields sounded the long caw of rooks�察�a sleepy crowing ever and anon told of the neighbour farm�察�my doves cooed above their cot。 Was it for five minutes�察�or was it for an hour�察�that I watched the yellow butterfly wafted as by an insensible tremor of the air amid the garden glintings�拭�In every autumn there es one such flawless day。 None that I have known brought me a mind so touched to the fitting mood of wele�察�and so fulfilled the promise of its peace。
XIX
I was at ramble in the lanes�察�when�察�from somewhere at a distance�察�there sounded the voice of a countryman´´strange to say´´singing。 The notes were indistinct�察�but they rose�察�to my ear�察�with a moment's musical sadness�察�and of a sudden my heart was stricken with a memory so keen that I knew not whether it was pain or delight。 For the sound seemed to me that of a peasant's song which I once heard whilst sitting among the ruins of Paestum。 The English landscape faded before my eyes。 I saw great Doric columns of honey´golden travertine�察�between them�察�as I looked one way�察�a deep strip of sea�察�when I turned�察�the purple gorges of the Apennine�察�and all about the temple�察�where I sat in solitude�察�a wilderness dead and still but for that long note of wailing melody。 I had not thought it possible that here�察�in my beloved home�察�where regret and desire are all but unknown to me�察�I could have been so deeply troubled by a thought of things far off。 I returned with head bent�察�that voice singing in my memory。 All the delight I have known in Italian travel burned again within my heart。 The old spell has not lost its power。 Never�察�I know�察�will it again draw me away from England�察�but the Southern sunlight cannot fade from my imagination�察�and to dream of its glow upon the ruins of old time wakes in me the voiceless desire which once was anguish。
In his Italienische Reise�察�Goethe tells that at one moment of his life the desire for Italy became to him a scarce endurable suffering�察�at length he could not bear to hear or to read of things Italian�察�even the sight of a Latin book so tortured him that he turned away from it�察�and the day arrived when�察�in spite of every obstacle�察�he yielded to the sickness of longing�察�and in secret stole away southward。 When first I read that passage�察�it represented exactly the state of my own mind�察�to think of Italy was to feel myself goaded by a longing which�察�at times�察�made me literally ill�察�I�察�too�察�had put aside my Latin books�察�simply because I could not endure the torment of imagination they caused me。 And I had so little hope ��nay�察�for years no shadow of reasonable hope�� that I should ever be able to appease my desire。 I taught myself to read Italian�察�that was something。 I worked ��half´heartedly�� at a colloquial phrase´book。 But my sickness only grew towards despair。
Then came into my hands a sum of money ��such a poor little sum�� for a book I had written。 It was early autumn。 I chanced to hear some one speak of Naples´´and only death would have held me back。
XX
Truly�察�I grow aged。 I have no longer much delight in wine。
But then�察�no wine ever much rejoiced me save that of Italy。 Wine´ drinking in England is�察�after all�察�only make´believe�察�a mere playing with an exotic inspiration。 Tennyson had his port�察�whereto clings a good old tradition�察�sherris sack belongs to a nobler age�察�these drinks are not for us。 Let him who will�察�toy with dubious Bordeaux or Burgundy�察�to get good of them�察�soul's good�察�you must be on the green side of thirty。 Once or twice they have plucked me from despair�察�I would not speak unkindly of anything in cask or bottle which bears the great name of wine。 But for me it is a thing of days gone by。 Never again shall I know the mellow hour cum regnat rosa�察�cum madent capilli。 Yet how it lives in memory��
;What call you this wine�拭─�I asked of the temple´guardian at Paestum�察�when he ministered to my thirst。 ;Vino di Calabria�察─�he answered�察�and what a glow in the name� �There I drank it�察�seated against the column of Poseidon's temple。 There I drank it�察�my feet resting on acanthus�察�my eyes wandering from sea to mountain�察�or peering at little shells niched in the crumbling surface of the sacred stone。 The autumn day declined�察�a breeze of evening whispered about the forsaken shore�察�on the far summit lay a long�察�still cloud�察�and its hue was that of my Calabrian wine。
How many such moments e back to me as my thoughts wander� �Dim little trattorie in city byways�察�inns smelling of the sun in forgotten valleys�察�on the mountain side�察�or by the tideless shore�察�where the grape has given me of its blood�察�and made life a rapture。 Who but the veriest fanatic of teetotalism would grudge me those hours so gloriously redeemed�拭�No draught of wine amid the old tombs under the violet sky but made me for the time a better man�察�larger of brain�察�more courageous�察�more gentle。 'Twas a revelry whereon came no repentance。 Could I but live for ever in thoughts and feelings such as those born to me in the shadow of the Italian vine� �There I listened to the sacred poets�察�there I walked with the wise of old�察�there did the gods reveal to me the secret of their eternal calm。 I hear the red rillet as it flows into the rustic glass�察�I see the purple light upon the hills。 Fill to me again�察�thou of the Roman visage and all but Roman speech� �Is not yonder the long gleaming of the Appian Way�拭�Chant in the old measure�察�the song imperishable
;dum Capitolium Scandet cum tacita virgine pontifex´´;
aye�察�and for how many an age when Pontiff and Vestal sleep in the eternal silence。 Let the slave of the iron gods chatter what he will�察�for him flows no Falernian�察�for him the Muses have no smile�察�no melody。 Ere the sun set�察�and the darkness fall about us�察�fill again��
XXI
Is there�察�at this moment�察�any boy of twenty�察�fairly educated�察�but without means�察�without help�察�with nothing but the glow in his brain and steadfast courage in his heart�察�who sits in a London garret�察�and writes for dear life�拭�There must be�察�I suppose�察�yet all that I have read and heard of late years about young writers�察�shows them in a very different aspect。 No garretteers�察�these novelists and journalists awaiting their promotion。 They eat´´and entertain their critics´´at fashionable restaurants�察�they are seen in expensive seats at the theatre�察�they inhabit handsome flats´´photographed for an illustrated paper on the first excuse。 At the worst�察�they belong to a reputable club�察�and have garments which permit them to attend a garden party or an evening ;at home; without attracting unpleasant notice。 Many biographical sketches have I read�察�during the last decade�察�making personal introduction of young Mr。 This or young Miss That�察�whose book was´´as the sweet language of the day will have it´ ´;booming;�察�but never one in which there was a hint of stern struggle�察�of the pinched stomach and frozen fingers。 I surmise that the path of ;literature; is being made too easy。 Doubtless it is a rare thing nowadays for a lad whose education ranks him with the upper middle class to find himself utterly without resources�察�should he wish to devote himself to the profession of letters。 And there is the root of the matter�察�writing has e to be recognized as a profession�察�almost as cut´and´dried as church or law�察�a lad may go into it with full parental approval�察�with ready avuncular support。 I heard not long ago of an eminent lawyer�察�who had paid a couple of hundred per annum for his son's instruction in the art of fiction´´ yea�察�the art of fiction´´by a not very brilliant professor of that art。 Really�察�when one es to think of it�察�an astonishing fact�察�a fact vastly significant。 Starvation�察�it is true�察�does not necessarily produce fine literature�察�but one feels uneasy about these carpet´authors。 To the two or three who have a measure of conscience and vision�察�I could wish�察�as the best thing�察�some calamity which would leave them friendless in the streets。 They would perish�察�perhaps。 But set that possibility against the all but certainty of their present prospect´´fatty degeneration of the soul�察�and is it not acceptable��
I thought of this as I stood yesterday watching a noble sunset�察�which brought back to my memory the sunsets of a London autumn�察�thirty years ago�察�more glorious�察�it seems to me�察�than any I have since beheld。 It happened that�察�on one such evening�察�I was by the river at Chelsea�察�with nothing to do except to feel that I was hungry�察�and to reflect that�察�before morning�察�I should be hungrier still。 I loitered upon Battersea Bridge´´the old picturesque wooden bridge�察�and there the western sky took hold upon me。 Half an hour later�察�I was speeding home。 I sat down�察�and wrote a description of what I had seen�察�and straightway sent it to an evening newspaper�察�which�察�to my astonishment�察�published the thing next day´´;On Battersea Bridge。; How proud I was of that little bit of writing� �I should not much like to see it again�察�for I thought it then so good that I am sure it would give me an unpleasant sensation now。 Still�察�I wrote it because I enjoyed doing so�察�quite as much as because I was hungry�察�and the couple of guineas it brought me had as pleasant a ring as any money I ever earned。
XXII
I wonder whether it be really true�察�as I have more than once seen suggested�察�that the publication of Anthony Trollope's autobiography in some degree accounts for the neglect into which he and his works fell so soon after his death。 I should like to believe it�察�for such a fact would be�察�from one point of view�察�a credit to ;the great big stupid public。; Only�察�of course�察�from one point of view�察�the notable merits of Trollope's work are unaffected by one's knowledge of how that work was produced�察�at his best he is an admirable writer of the pedestrian school�察�and this disappearance of his name does not mean final oblivion。 Like every other novelist of note�察�he had two classes of admirers´´those who read him for the sake of that excellence which here and there he achieved�察�and the undistinguishing crowd which found in him a level entertainment。 But it would be a satisfaction to think that ;the great big stupid; was really�察�somewhere in its secret economy�察�offended by that revelation of mechanical methods which made the autobiography either a disgusting or an amusing book to those who read it more intelligently。 A man with a watch before his eyes�察�penning exactly so many