grin；andsetofftogreetayoung；goodlookingguywearingpurple
scrubs
chingher；jackuldnthelpbutthinkthatthereethingto
besaidforlivingandallerplacethansanfrancis
peoplesailiarfaceswereeverywhere
ite；whenlifewasshaky
hehadntalalltownwhere
everyonekneacyso
heitye
relief
heehere；too；ifhehadbeen
acceptedbuttusnoneyet
rachel
rachellovedarizonashelovedtheair；thesun；theopenspaceshe
lovedthedesertlandscape；claidthatthereanticisoit；
thatsheuldfeeltheghostofgeroniridingthroughthebrush
shelovedtheheat；lovedpytanktopsandshortsand
pilingherhairontopofherhead；evenlovedsing
shehadblossodasapainterintucsonhinstructionand
practice；shebecatechnicallyproficientasherpersonal
nfidencegrerengthwearingalarge；
broadbriedhat；shespenthouruponhourinthedesert；nearly
iobileathereasel；brushandpaletteinhandshehadthepatience
tofordesertcreaturestoappear；andthestillnessnottoscare
theffoncetheydidhedesert；shewasin
heaven；butherpleasureextendedfarbeyondthatshesay
pseofthe
sunangledlouedblandintobreathless
jackandrachelarriedfor
thelast；andinallthattitheyhadntdisagreedonathingthen
jackilltheydidnt
disagree
itdesenseforanarwasa
goodoneinterofprojeent；andpay
ras；jackhadansheend；it
boileddoothefactthatsheuldworkanywhere；andhe
uldnt
sotheyved
heher
elentighthave
foundcausefoeioninbigsur；buttherehadbeenalong
stretchofbarrenyearsbeforethatherworkhadsufferedheshould
haveseenit
andthentheredrivingtothe
hospitaltobehherfortheseventhdayinaroheyhadnt
vedtosanfrancis；shehaveendedupinbigsur；
havebeendrivingtheastroadatthesatiasanelderlyan
arightnow
ingupononeary
katherineofferedtokeepaneyeonhopeosan
francis”itsnday；”sheexplained”theshopisclosed”but
jackhesahesadexpressiononherfaceand
thetearsthatreinedinastateofperpetualthreathedidntknow
hershehinkingofguinevereorrachel；butadrivetothe
cityclosertoherafterguineverehe
iginedtheyhadestablishedabond；andedtokeepitgoing
heself；broodingaboutpeoplegivingupon
rachelgivenhisdruthers；hebedrivingtosanfrancisat
all；butsittinghher；talkingtoher；badgeringher；challenging
hernythingtogavehinother
purpose
besides；sheeofhis
responsibilities；proofforalltoseeofthereasons
stayinsanfrancisforlong
hecalledjillfrohephonedohehallandexplainedabout
guineveresde
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ath；aboutgettingalatestartfroigsur；about
chaelflynnsdefectionasgentlyasheuld；hesaid；”icantdo
luneibr 》
sorry
illbetyoudesothingincredible”ontopofeverythingelse；
jilletok
”notyetiaverarightbeforeyouca
theingredientsetorrolosedhis
eyesandrubbedhisbrobeinthecitynotuntillaterin
thehenaquiet”doesrachelknowyoure
there””idontknoicantnotbethere”afteranother
pause；sheaskedsoftly；”ingthedeepstuff
andhedidntit；didntitsohesaid；”becauseituld
keadifference；jillthegirlstalkingtoheruldhelpherout
oftheatalkingtoheruldhelpheroutofitshesthe
therofchildreniheredhasigh
”iknow”
”thursday；”hesuggested；becauseheingherandhedidnt
that”hothursdayheveggiesholduntilthen”
”itsnotabouttheveggies”
”iknotnts”lunchthursdayiprose”
theystoppedatjacgillwhile
hefilledalargesportsduffelail
intoashoppingbag
theypthesun；
andstillthebackyardlookedgray
inthedstofputtingeverythinginthecar；jackhadathought
retuingtohisbedrooloset；hepushedsersasideonthetop
shelfandpulleddoedphotographsoneheland
thegids；oneofraintoabag；herejoined
hope
theystoppedatanearbypastryshopforlunchtheplaceall
enoughandjaeooshowasign
ofregrutionhisorderptlyandefficiently；butno
onesaidaword
still；theylingeredtherehegothopearefillofke；hshe
drank；andofferedherdessert；hsherefusedheorderedapiece
ofrblecheesecakeanyadehertakea
bite
hedrankhisthirdcupofffee
putitoffanylonger；theyheadedfortheoffice；
thebulkofthenextthreehoursarguingh
ntractors；apologizingtoclients；assigningtaskstoassociates；and
avoidingdavidhesucceededineverythingbutthelastdavidfound
hi；andrachel；
addingtothepressurehealreadyfelt
inthesuddensilenceafteroensebout；hopeasked；”doyoulike
david”shehadherlegstuckedunderheronthesofainhisoffice
andeatelyreadingabook；doodling；andchingjackwork
davidhadjuststalkedoutclutchingthelatestdesignrevisionforthe
ntanaresort；topresentattuesdays
eting
”sure；ido；”jacksaid”davidandigobackfifteenyearsweve
sharedsoexcitingjobs；prettyheadystuffhedoesthethingsi
cant；andviceversaitodayifiti
thisisourfiradeitourselveswere
partners”hopethoughtaboutthatforanute”butdoyoulike
hijairedavidsdedicationand
direction
lately；hehadfoundthenalittletoointensestill；hooargue
thrived”hekeepsthefiregoing
underightbetetedtorelax”
”oesntlikehi”hopesaidquietly
”really”itojackrachelhadneversaidaword”why
not””shesaysheshard”hardsininsensitive；cfiutthroat；and
driven”so；too”
”eversaidthat；”hopesaidquickly
”shedidnteveryellandscreandcurseout”heteased
asheepishgrin”aybebutshealer”
”didshesay””whensheapologized””whenshee
out”
”oh；youknoedashoulderstubbo；selfishbutshesaid
ittooktakearriageakeitfail；soshewas
aschatfaultasyouantha
talk；jackhadaledthathis”desertion”heonlything
discussedhehebadguy；rachelthegoodguyheuldnt
iginehopesayingsothingdifferent；ifitso
heveredhissurprisebyflippingherdoodlepadaroundherpenhad
recreatedguinevere；capturingvulnerabilityinif
strokes
hetuedbackapageandforilarly
evouch
ofitargely；ironiantha；thoughitappearedthat
santhay
butsanthatherejustthenonanoteofgenuineaold
hope；”youareyourthersdaughter”
”ean””youseethesathingsshedoesll；subtle
things；feelingsandyouorethani
candoitsarealtalent
”hopegaveadestlittleshrug；buthercheekswerepink”iloved
guineveredraakesfeellikeshesstillhere”her
voicecaughthereyesfell”ikeepthinkingofherbackthere”
”iknowyoudo”
”illssher”
”youproudofyou”tearsgatheredonherlower
lids”shesstilldead”
”butyoudeherlastdaysgoodones
youoher
”heedherhappy”youanothercatifyou”
inutesthought；sheshookherhead”ieer
guinevereforatlescaredofnewpeople；
andshedidntlikeplayingefrohe
nightoherso
ifianothercat
takingherplacesosoon”
”brendansaysyourenotinghus
”lydiaaskedtheytheirlockersattheendofthe
daysanthahadavoidedlydiathatlong
shesopedherhairoffherface”ioinghteaguerunyanhe
hasacaritllbebetterthisway”
”betterforroublehehasapolicererd”
”heing
itistakenidentitythechargesweredropped；sohe
doesnothaveapolicererd”
”heschoolforcheating”
”foronedaythatshowas”
”theresnoyparentsintothehouse”
”ifyourparentse；”santhasaidarchly；”theydnever
knotherehere””they
startedaskingiuldntl
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ietotheirfaces”
”yparents；soidonthavethatworry”
”doesyourfatherknohteague””surehetrusts
”all
asureofsatisfactionthesatisfactionhough；whenlydia
gatheredherbooksand；shouldershunchingasshehuggedthelose；
walkedawayalone
itejackretuedtothehospital
katherinehadpickedupsanthaatschoolandretuedhacd
player；lyonthebedstandnotthes
froachelshead
”garth；”santhatoldhiseengunperturbedbythechangein
roo
”shesafan；too”hekneedthat
thenhisrachelhadbeenpartialtothe
likesofjastaylor；vanrrison；andtheeagles
”abigfan；”santhasaid
hopenfirditutodobut
tosetupthepictureshehadbrought
santhadiatelydra”those”
”ivehadthe”hesaidcasually”ithedoctorsandnurseswho
otherto
viehing；feelingindividual”
”grandsuredoeslookshesent”threelargeboxeswere
stackedbythedhhotpink
tissueandthekindoffrothyestuffthatrachelhadnttouched
sinceshehadcutitupandseintoaquilt
”nightgoanthasaidunnecessarily
hopesatonherheelsandbeganlookinginsidetheboxes”br 》
”jackansweringby
thearrivalofthetravelagent；dinahnroesheartsuit
andherdarkhairinashinybobafterfingeringthelingerieh
genuineadration；shekissedrachelscheekand；inanupbeattone
thaththenceinhereyes；toldherabouttheclient
froellforshehadspentstofthedaybookinganaegean
anthaaboutatualfriendand
sharedsyatheticriesofguineverehhope
shedidntstayforrethantennutesander
byeliza；ofthedarkeyesanddarkcurls；arrivingpecan
rollspainutesheopenedtheinnerst
one；thesscentedoutjackbegantosalivateafterten
nutesofgentlechatterhrachel；katherine；andthegirls；she
wasgone
therollsreinedinthetraytablejackand
todoaboutdinnerhis
latestvisitoralebuteffenate；harlanbyna；oneof
katherinesoperatorshehuggedthegirlsandkissedrachel；chatted
e；thenleftjackhadbarelybeguntoget
overthefeelingthatheheoutsiderhereh
anotherzipperedbag
”brisket；”shetoldhi”noodlesandveggiesincludedjustheat
andserve”shedidntstaychlongerthanittooktotellrachel
abouttheabyslgaofgolfshehadplayedthatday；hersurprise
enjoyntofthebookgroupsnextbook；andherthreeyearold
granddaughterspreschoolplaythenshe；too；wasgone
halfanhourlater；hanearfillof
beadedhoopsandacedarscentedcandle；jackherineintothe
hall”tellthetruth；”hesaid”these
visitorsdovetailtooneatlysooneorchestratedthis
you
””definitelytheye；butitdorachelanygoodto
havethellhereatonce”
”didyoutelleachoobring””ididnthavetotheyknew
hthis”he
didbuthesureitwas
yes；hediditheoutsiderthinghewasfeelingusurped
l”thegirlshavecdplayers；”hesaid”igavetheachonelast
christstheyghthaveedtobringracheltheirown”
”iftheyho
andbooks”shestudiedhi”areyoujealous””jealousof
””ofbringingacdofrachelsfriendsbringingotherthingsof
rajustsurprisedsheused
tobereofalonerihadnoideashehadsonyfriends；andgood
friendstheyvegoneoutoftheirohelpout”；；”dontyou
havefriendseifthesituationwasreversed”
jackhadny；nyfriendsbutgoodfriendsjille；for
suredavidheuldntquitepictureit
”dorachelsfriendskeyoufeelleftout”katherineasked
”ofursenothat””itsjusthowyoulook；
standingoverbytheslikeyourerealizingthatyoudont
knoshesdoinghherlife；andeven
thoughyouredivorced；thatbothersyouisitantrolthing”he
raarriage
yourjob；youeedscafirstidcallthatntrollingold
habitsdiehard”
”thankyou；drfreud；”hesaid；thenaddedanannoyed”isthereso
reasonyouretellingthis””uhhuh
rachelifsheuld；butshecant”